So I finally have over $300 raised up for my wonderful trip to ohio (for both times!).
I know, sweet right?
Anywho, Not much has changed besides my nose is pierced, I use my ipod touch more, and I'm a work-a-holic now.
Never a dull moment man...never. lol.
I can't wait to go see jamie, it's been like a century since me and her have hung out and omg, I hope to god I don't get lost this time rofl.
I know I've asked this a million times but what's your address again jamie dearest?!
I'm a twitter, lady gaga, and watching chaylee addict.
I'm a adopting her so if I put something about 'my daughter' that's her. :]
She's my cousin so that explains why we look so much alike.
So, yeah other than that, my big bro has a new/old gf.
wayyy wayyyyy better than rae will/could ever be.
She's my neice's mommy.
YAY DEREK!
lol.
Welps, I better go eat and nap before work.
Long night ahead of me. WEEEEEEEEE! <3
"Boys Boys Boys"
Hey there sugar baby
Saw you twice at the pop show
You taste just like glitter mixed with rock and roll
I like you a lot lot
Think you're really hot hot
I know you think you're special
When we dance real crazy
Glam-aphonic, electronic, disco baby
I like you a lot lot
All we want is hot hot
[Chorus:]
Boys boys boys
We like boys in cars
Boys boys boys
Buy us drinks in bars
Boys boys boys
With hairspray and denim
Boys boys boys
We love them!
Oh, oh
Baby is a bad boy
With some retro sneakers
Let's go see The Killers
And make out in the bleachers
I like you a lot lot
Think you're really hot hot
Let's go to the party
Heard our buddy's the DJ
Don't forget my lipstick
I left it in your ashtray
I like you a lot lot
All we want is hot hot
[Chorus]
I'm not loose, I like to party
Let's get lost in your Ferrari
Not psychotic or dramatic
I like boys and that is that
Love it when you call me legs
In the morning buy me eggs
Watch your heart when we're together
Boys like you love me forever
Oh, oh, oh, oh
[Chorus x2]
We love them!
[Chorus]
(We love them!)
- Mmmm and the sound of his voice is just so damn sweet.
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edge_of_retreat- September 30th, 12:16
- She wears red when she's feelin' hot (SO HOTTTT!)
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- edge_of_retreat
- August 28th, 10:38
Well I'm physically and emotionally stressed from work. I started crying to day when I didn't get to see my neice I was like wtf?! I never cry.
Normally if I cry it's happens for no apparent reason now a days. I noticed it after my cousin jarrod died. It's like really I lost all my tears or something; like there's no emotional attachment to it. I've decided that I'm madly in love with brendon uries voice. fo sho. it's just so...different. :] <333 My jeep has been broke down so I've been driving a super gay nissan. yay! but it's sure to be COMPLETELY fixed by today. I can't wait to take a trip to ohio cause I frickin' miss jamie so much and really I just need a break from EVERYONE here. Everyone's just so...idk. Annoying to me lately. I work all damn day tomorrow...NONSTOP! it's sucks. I hate working 7 days a week but it's the only way I can have enough money to do what I need to do, ya know? So, college is taking a backseat 4 now. I'm pretty sure I don't need certification to be a photographer, but I mean it helps so..idk. I'd love to work for alternative press...more than anything in the world, actually. Music makes me happy. I never realized how much it alters my mood to sit and listen to cobra starship, sum 41, atl, DTF, fallbrooke, the maine, ect. my mood changes completely. I've highly missed the deftones, them and nirvana were my first favorite bands as kid and then for some reason it converted to spice girls, britney, bsb, and n*sync for a while. I wish the deftones would come up with new music like their cd white pony. it's incredible though saturday night wrists wasn't too bad. I remember going to see them with korn, stone sour, and this crappy ass band called dir en grey [I could shoot someone for listening to that load of crap]. It was awesome, except for the fact I was getting a contact buzz from the people sitting in front of me smoking a doobie. ROFL. then I tripped over some chairs. This only happened due to the fact that I hadn't smoked pot for a year and I had inhaled alot secondhandedly. oh and I gave up pot because I want a good job. I don't have a problem with it...it chills crazy people out. lol. big red gum is the greatest thing ever/ fucking blazin hot on the mouth partages. :| Well, this has been fun. the random ranting and whatnot. I'ma go. catch you on the flip side. [wtf?!]
<3
- Whoa oh oh how was I supposed to know that you were o-o-over me I think that I should go.
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- edge_of_retreat
- August 20th, 12:12
Well right now I'm watching degrassi and they're talking about gonnorhea [sounds like a morgan joke].
lmfao.
I have 2 jobs now, and highly considering quitting dairy queen.
It's wayyyy too much stress and then I'm never going to have time for my kid I'm about to adopt [Chaylee].
That and I already don't get to talk to jamie as much as it is so...yeah.
I miss my best friend. =[
So, anyway rae called cps on deb, my bubby, and kim; so, I had to talk to them.
It was quite frankly gay.
I'm more than likely going to strangle her to death.
I think I need a hair cut or something.
I def think I'm in love with sum 41's music. lol.
I swear I was singing fat lip all day yesterday b4 work.
oh and turns out that one guy that sings 1 timeis SO white, but I kept thinking he was black. not cause I'm racist or anything but he sounds like a mix of lloyd and well I can't really remember the other guys name but yeah.
That high pitched creep of a voice.
lmfao.
I like the song though so it's all good.
oh yeah, it's def cause I hardly hear white people say shawty....that's what it is. ROFL.
my kitten is so much more peaceful now that she doesn't have claws. Whew..it's great.
Haha she's been all lovey dovey since I brought her back home from the vet.
lol. She must think I saved her. haha.
Well, I'ma go. =]
- My stomach hurts now, all tied off in lace. I pray, I beg for anything to hit me in the face...
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- edge_of_retreat
- August 8th, 1:35
I'm sitting here listening to the used.
I'm not hyper so there's like 55599999769697078089056745683475234652304502389475 chance that I'm not going to go to sleep.
lately it's been kinda hard to sleep.
with tina dieing, certain people getting on my nerves, and thinking about 2 people who I feel strongly for at the same time.
What can I say, the boys...they keep me awake. lol.
I tried even drinking some castillo to knock my ass out but nothing.
I've been house sitting and honestly I think I've REALLY enjoyed my alone time....
I wish I had more of it. :[
I feel like I need to be alone a lot lately.
It's like I'm becomming antisocial.
I don't really feel like talking, ya know and all the thoughts that inhabit my head around this time I'd have to say no one would want to hear.
my thoughts have been darkening for a while now.
As to the purpose of it all IDK.
I feel suffocated so quick.
I miss jordan.
I really like jeremy.
My fire fighter duties are taking a backseat for now.
today I accidentally cut myself when I was preparing food, I stood there and watched the blood trickle.
It wasn't a deep wound it was just enough to help me know I'm alive.
I feel dead, if that makes sense.
I'm starting to sound like an emo kid but whatever.
I'm constantly worried about what I'm going to do with my life, whether I'm wasting my time, whether or not I'm even going to succeed.
It's all trapped in my head and it's just...it's sickening.
My biggest worries are avalon, my older brother, and little bit.
avalon- I'm afraid she's not going to be raised up like I hoped. I never wanted her to experience what I did through childhood. it makes me sad.
My brother- he's still with rae. I wish he would see that he belongs with someone else and not her. she's a pill popping theif. I don't feel comfortable around her. she's sketchy.
Little bit- she's going through a shit time right now and honestly her lynn, alyssa, and sarah are the only ones I'm close to at work. She's def my best friend from work [now that jamie's not there anymore :[ ]. I really don't know what to do or say to really help I just try to be goofy and really that's all I can do.
There's so many things I'm missing and so many things that I wish just didn't happen.
There's wayyy too much stress, and just idk. I wish things were different.
I wish I could just have things like I wanted them, and not feel this shitty, ya know?
Well, I'm done with the rant I'm sure this only brought down your day and made you feel clincally depressed. :[
- You were the only face I'd ever known, I was the light from the lamp on the floor.
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- edge_of_retreat
- August 7th, 0:50
blah
SO, Saturday morning my radio for pekin fire department goes off
"Attention all dispatchers, attention all dispatchers. There has been a 36 year old woman laying unconscious, not breathing on farabee road subject may have had..."
I turned it off, I just didn't feel like taking a run today [that's code for I didn't feel like doing anything].
Later that day, morgan calls me and tells me tina faye died.
At this point I'm in shock.
I completely stopped my jeep in the middle of the road and was like "TINA FAYE'S DEAD?!"
Morgan replied yes and said something I didn't understand and I was like okay, goodbye.
Not but a few moments later my dad calls me telling me he wants to have lunch [that's just how me and dad roll...when we get free time..we have lunch together.].
SO we head to tasty house and I was like "dude, my manager tina died."
Dad was like I know, I had to try to stablize her and then load her in the truck [he couldn't revive her].
I'm pretty sure I spent 10 minutes staring at a jar of honey...atleast that is what dad said.
The state of shock ended on tuesday at the funeral, I went to the FINAL viewing...I looked at her and my head was screaming that's not her.
I mean, it really didn't look like her and that made me even more sad.
so I was standing up there with morgan staring at her for a pure 5 minutes. I turned to tell tanya goodbye...the last thing I want is for her to see me cry...no one ever sees me cry.
She was like "How you gonna leave me and her like that?"
I had to go pick up my godbaby because I was tired of her coming home from elisha's mom's house covered in pinch marks, and the fact that I can't deal with dead things.
Mom and them are all in florida and I'm stuck maintaining the house.
Basically this week has sucked.
FML.
- Momma and daddy got the best cocaine,Ritalin's never gonna feel the same;baby, you can't save me.
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- edge_of_retreat
- July 26th, 8:49
I'm having an extreme complex in my life where I don't know wtf I'm doing.
It's a 'should I stay or should I go' situation.
Lately, I either feel like my stomach is trying to kill me; rip my insides out,
Or I'm easily frustrated.
I don't know.
I really wanna go see jamie and get away from indiana for a while.
I'm kinda scared to see her reaction to how much I've changed. lol.
I'm not sure if I've gotten more immature or if I've matured up.
Man, I could really use some pancakes.
Anyway, I'm getting a new phone soon so that should be uh...rad I guess.
My kitten is a nut case, wakes me up the same way every morning...
"Look there's natasha's head! I'ma suffocate that bitch to wake her up!" lmfao.
Well that wasn't a sick and fucked up thought...
gosh, my brother's baby is growing up so fast, she's getting so big.
So is avalon.
It's like wow...just a few days ago you were like..dude, she's so tiny!
It just floors me.
I need to find more friends. I don't get out much anymore and quite frankly I need some fresh blood to corupt. lmao.
I've become obsessed with sugarcult and taking back sunday.
Cut me up jenny is my favorite from tbs & los angelos from sugarcult.
Boys have been creating a serious complex in my life.
I've been flirting around a lot and finally when I find the guy I somewhat like he just treats me like a stranger now.
WTF?!
he called me like 5 nights in a row and then he got mad at me [he doesn't understand my sense of humor.].
So now he's pissy with me 24/7.
God, guys always have to be such p.i.a's
well I'm off to get my phone someone's texting me. :]
- it's nice to meet you sir.
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- edge_of_retreat
- July 12th, 16:50
So my weekend has been interesting.
I really honestly feel half way ashamed of myself.
If jordan knew it would prolly kill him, but ya know I can't deal with him anymore.
This guy named chris is phenonminal, he's cute as cute can be and everyone knows I'm a sucker for brown eyes [plus for some reason shyness is a total turn on]. :]
Jason...he's cute and quite the gentleman, but honestly I think I favor chris more.
I want to be able to make up my mind but god it's hard.
Either I can stay single or get together with chris. idk.
I don't think I have the guts to really hurt jordan, I mean he's moved on but he says everytime he's with her he thinks of me.
Thinks of the shit I used to do that she doesn't and it bugs him.
I told him I'm kinda over being told what I can and can't do, argueing over stupid little shit and feeling completely insecure and unhappy.
Don't get me wrong I still somewhat love him but damn.
So anyway, I have two jobs now.
It's pretty sweet. (LMFAO...yeah...right...)
I spent some time today with chris and honestly I've never realized how much he makes me forget jordan and other guy who should not be named.
He's just so..idk.
I can't let myself get hurt again, I can't allow it.
So anyway, I wanted to go see jamie this coming weekend and turns out I can't because karen keeps scheduling me to work when I request off.
WTF?!
I've been listening to a lot of old school green day and fall out boy...
weird.
I've been having some problems with my friends, and they've been having problems with their lovers.
haha I'm relieved that I don't have someone to drag me down and/or piss me off.
hm, well I'm go.
:]
- Not a misconception, I just hit a new direction. I'm over this, and I'm over you.
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- edge_of_retreat
- July 4th, 14:01
SO basically;
some punk bitch has REALLY been trying to mess with me today.
He's obviously a dumbass.
Faggle's been judging me a lot lately.
Because I have two peircings besides my ears.
Why's it matter? IDK. he's faggle, he doesn't need reason for the things he does.
Morgan's been getting on my last fucking nerve.
I HATE CLOSING WITH HER!
Honestly, I think dairy queen should let us dook it out..I mean even though morgan would have the shit beat out of her the most....yeah...
we need a steele cage.
I really miss jamie and skye.
MY FAVORITE GINGERS! :]
I'm sick of my blonde hair now...it's just so...BORING!
actually a whole lot more shit has gone on since jamie left that it's unreal.
I miss pissing barb off, but atleast now everyone picks on morgan instead of me.
That's prolly cause now I'll get buck.
Yes, I'm a little gangster. :]
well I'm out home fries.
PUHHH....
- It's like when things start going good...someone fucks it up for me.
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- edge_of_retreat
- June 24th, 20:15
SO I asked mom if I could take my bed with me when I leave...
She said, no.
I asked if I could take my tv...
She said no.
basically I can't take anything but my ipod doc,clothes and kitten.
I fucking hate her so bad right now.
I hope jamie was being serious when she said I could come live with her cause I'm highly considering it.
I'm tired of indiana.
I'm tired of being told what is and isn't mine..when really all that stuff is mine.
I'm tired of the people that surround me.
I am so fucking pissed off that I'm crying.
I love how they let my older brother take his bed.
They were like...he bought it.
NO HE FUCKING DIDN'T!
they're both liars and they're BOTH trying to get me pissed off.
Well congradulations! They've done it.
I hate them so fucking bad that I could puke.
Seriously...I could.
I see how my family really is and I'm done.
- On the corner of first and armistad...
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- edge_of_retreat
- June 21st, 11:37
So I've noticed that I do little piddly shit like my dad.
Like forgetting, which is pretty shitty.
I left my friend out in the cold pretty much.
But I mean she lives with someone who can drive so she got there okay, but I still feel bad.
Sometimes I feel like I'm nothing but a free ride to some of my friends, tho.
I don't even really know what's up with me lately.
I feel constant fucking stress to do what everyone else wants me to do.
I've noticed I've been lieing more to my mom than usual.
Making promises I don't keep.
and honestly, I've felt nothing but pure nausea and annoyance for the past week and a half.
Idk.
Maybe someone else can tell me if what I am doing is wrong.
I haven't cared about myself in forever and now that I have started to do what I want and not what everyone else does...I feel like a shitty friend.
I hate that.
I don't want to be that person, but I am constantly suffucated.
I miss my friend jamie.
I should just go spend a whole week with her and skye.
I miss them. :[
haha HOOTY HOOOOOOOO ASSHOLE!
I find out news from the doctor tomorrow as to weather or not I have fucked up my life [again].
Well I'm going to get some foodage.
:]
- WTF?!
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- edge_of_retreat
- June 10th, 23:55
Sound Effects And Overdramatics"
When the shirt came off, it was all in time
When a m-m-m-minute turned into a mile
And then I broke that grin, and I cut it out
And you got all turned on by the taste of your sin
When I mention blue, all you thought was color
When you mention drugs, all I thought was sober
When your pants came off and I turned you over
When you mention blue
Kill! Smile! Cut it out for me this time!
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while
Keep the mask aligned
Get it up in time
There's a space between valleys
and try and catch a vibe
Make a circle square, a rectangle curve
Use a smile as a noun and I think like a verb
Run quick switch sides
Spill the filled up cancer
And the room is shaking
Now you're changing places,
and I switched my pace,
and my breathing races when you mention blue
Kill! Smile! Cut it out for me this time!
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while
Kill! Smile! Cut it out for me this time! (This is not [x6])
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while
Kill, smile, cut out for me cut it cut it out
Smile, cut cut it out for me cut it cut it out
We cut it out!
Kill! Smile! Cut it out for me this time!
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while
Kill! Smile! Cut it out for me this time! (This is not [x6])
Smile, haven't seen him smile in a while
Get down and stay awake
Smile
These lyrics soooooo have to be wrong or I'm really fucked up for liking this song. ROFL.
- You have only been gone for ten days but I already feel as though I fading away...
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- edge_of_retreat
- June 5th, 0:30
So I graduate saturday.
I'm moving soon and I'm totally excited about it.
Jordan asked me to marry him, but I can't tell him yes, but then again I can't tell him no.
I love him I just have wayyyyy too much to worry about now.
I start up at the art institute in october but I take online classes starting in july.
Faggle gave rae the boot.
I made a new friend.
I'm crazy at work and much happier, but only cause I know I'll be quitting soon. :]
other than thatl, I'm psyched about warped tour.
Finally everything seems to be falling in place.
Oh yeah.....it feels amazing.
Nostalgia has hit and I'm going to miss my prosser family so much.
Well I g2g before my brother tries reading my shit again.
Mom doesn't know about the whole jordan thing.
ILU guys. :]
- This is SO my favorite song right now. XD
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- edge_of_retreat
- May 19th, 22:47
oh baby, baby,
have you seen amy tonight,
is she in tha bathroom?
is she smoking up out side?
oh,
oh baby, baby,
does she take a piece of lime,
for the drink that ima buy her,
do you know just what she likes?
oh, oh,
tell me have you seen her cos im,
so, oh,
i cant get her off of my brain,
i just wanna go to tha party she gon go,
cant some body take me home,
haha, hehe, haha, ho,
CHORUS
love me, hate me,
say what you want about me,
but all of the boys and all of the girls,
are beggin to if you seek amy.
love me, hate me,
but can't you see what i see,
but all of the boys and all of the girls,
are beggin to if you seek amy.
amy told me that shes gonna meet me up,
i dunno where or when,
but now their closing up the club,
ive seen her once or twice before,
she knows may face,
but its hard to see,
with all the people standing in the way,
oh, oh,
tell me have you seen her cos im,
so, oh,
i cant get her off of my brain,
i just wanna go to tha party she gon go,
cant some body take me home,
haha, hehe, haha, ho,
CHORUS
ohh say what u want a bout me,
ohh but cant u see what i see,
ohh say what you want about me,
so tell me if you see her,
i wanna no what she was wearing and what she was like, cos ive been waiting here forever,
and do you know if she was going out of mind,
oh baby baby if you seek amy tonight,
oh baby baby we'll do what ever you like,
oh baby baby baby,
oh baby baby baby
CHORUS
ohh say what u want a bout me,
ohh but cant u see what i see,
ohh say what you want about me,
cos all of the boys and all of the girls,
are begging to if you seek amy.
love me, hate me, say what you want about me.
- SUPER RANT!
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- edge_of_retreat
- April 6th, 16:16
So I told myself that I would never let a guy get to me again.
and he did.
Not only did he lie to toni, but he lied to the rest of us too.
He couldn't've just been honest?
omg so fucking stupid.
I'm pretty sure we're mature enough to handle the truth.
And he didn't want to hurt me?
haha well look what he's gone and done.
what a dumbass!
So, I just started dating my friend jordan.
AND he's awesome.
When I'm around him I forget about eli and am able to calm down.
I REALLY hope this one works out, seriously, I'm tired of getting hurt.
ANYWAY, I'm also really tired of miley cyrus.
Honestly, Someone should slap that dumb bitch upside her head.
If I ever become famous and meet her...oh she's getting slapped and she's gonna be like, "why'd you do that?! DADDY!" and I'ma be like bitch... you are terrible.
Her voice is terrible...how can anyone really listen to that?
The only song I like by her is east north...whatever the hell it's called high.
She screams at you in every song.
Her vocal pitch is like...nails on a chalk board.
OMG...it quite frankly disgusts me.
I could be miley if I kept smoking cigarettes and drinking.
Not saying that she does any of that so, don't go telling people that.
I'm just implying that she's not as great as everyone thinks.
Oh and for the love of god...she's 15 she doesn't really know what love is yet So, why is she confusing the looks of robert pattinson with love?
IDK she's dumb.
so basically I hate miley and eli.
Oh and I love my new text ringtone. :]
- There's no snow in southern california...baby I adore ya!
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- edge_of_retreat
- March 29th, 14:28
Well my spring break has been gay as fuck.
Caleb pretty much ruined it for me.
I really wanted to go see my friend Jamie, and he couldn't just do what I asked of him instead of my parents?
Gah!
I spent the whole week in hospitals.
My uncles off the vent now [that's lifesupport.] and he's doing better.
Avalon's home and boy, is she the cutest thing ever. haha.
My hair is of course blonde...again.
The whole process was a nightmare.
Seriously, I thought I'd bleach the red out...haha no, it turned orange.
Yes, I know...I'm a dumbass.
but if you knew what was um...up with me that day you'd be like...OH.....
SO, besides all that stupid crap I can't wait til prom on saturday.
I have the most amazing outfit ever. :]
Karen better not make me work that day...I mean I'm not even on the schedule this week, but seriously....I'm not missing my senior prom.
Sure, this is like my 4th prom, but I mean this one actually matters and I've been planning this months.
Of course, I'm going dateless, but it's mostly because I'm picky when it comes to boys.
Yes, I'm vain. XD
AND yes, only jamie would get that. ROFL.
Well I'm off to skiddadle off to the wonderful world of hospitals once again.
MMMMM...I love chai protein shakes.
They make me happy. :]
~Natasha
- 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you...
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- edge_of_retreat
- March 19th, 21:09
My week has been miserable.
I'm stressed over avalon because she's going to be a week old and in the damn hospital still.
My uncle's on life support.
I'm behind in school.
I need a break from living, ya know?
I need someone to knock me into a coma for like week and then everything will be okay.
I'm getting really bad headaches, I'm frickin tired all the time, and I have a stye so I can't wear my contacts. I freakin' hate my glasses. Sorry, that's all I can really bitch about.
Oh yeah, AND I got in trouble at Prosser for losing my temper at chef hitler, but honestly...I was fucking stressed normally I'd be like okay..whatever.
I hate my job.
But on the plus side, faggle and my dad have been really nice to me.
Not gettin on my nerves and whatnot.
I'm preparing to go to ohio soon so... YAY!
haha I hope I get ot see jamie.
I miss her lots. haha.
Works just not as funny anymore...well actually me and tanya are retarded as fuck when we work together it's almost like working with jamie cept jamie...is pretty much more awesome.
haha no offense and all.
I'm getting off here and going to sleep.
ILY guys,
Natasha
- I'm a little too optomistic sometimes. rofl.
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- edge_of_retreat
- March 5th, 19:49
So, Bascially I'm not friends with Brittany Seiscio anymore.
I don't care though.
I always felt like she was lieing or keeping something from me.
Jamie was right.
I should've known she was a shitty friend when she started blaming us all in the jeep for getting lost when she was the one giving me directions.
She's the type of person who thinks that she's awesome, I mean she has moments when she's cool but really she has a issue with being a bitch to people for no reason and she was basically just using me and Jess so that she could get into eastern's prom and honestly...she doesn't have as many friends there as she thinks.
ANYWAY other than that...I'm actually happy with life.
I've come to realize that I am who I am and no one will ever be able to change that.
I love being me, and no one WILL EVER PHASE ME!
I still soooo want to go to we the kings and forever the sickest kids but I have to find someone to go with me. lol.
I'm not going with brittany obviously.
Maybe Holly,Jess, or elisha and toni will go with me.
I have to say elisha and toni together...they're a package deal I suppose.
haha.
So yeah, I'm excited for prom.
It's going to be amazing and I have to get muroki address so that I can go see her during my spring break.
I'm thinking of going and seeing my friend mel in CT.
I miss my friend Katie SO much!
She's having a little girl named emma.
I'm so excited for her.
So, basically life is awesome.
I'm happier than I've been in a while.
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- Oh fuck my life.
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- edge_of_retreat
- March 1st, 14:23
So faggle filled out my FASFA.
SO...YAY?!
I'm starting to go into this stupid depression thing where I don't want to get out of bed.
Faggle has expressed his concern by buying me pimp ass shoes and leaving me alone...except when he's drunk and feels the need to ramble to me.
anyway, I'm giving up 'pie' and caffeine for fourty days and fourty nights.
I have A LOT of catholic friends so even though I'm not religious...I'm going to be there for them in their time of misery.
Prom, graduation, and everything else has just really fucked things up for me.
It's all too close and I wanted to be able to enjoy my senior year, but I guess not.
It SUCKS!
AND OMG, I just am so sick of working where I work.
One week I get a lot of hours and then I get the fucking shaft of two days the next.
I'm so fucking tired of wasting my time with that place.
And everytime I go to work I literally have to pull off the side of the road and throw up.
That's how bad I hate it.
And to top it off everyone I work with gets on my last fucking nerves.
Well tanya and Liz aren't bad, but everyone else are fucking morons [NO OFFENSE, actually take a offense...I don't give a fuck!]
I suspect that someone from work has been reading my livejournal and running their mouths to karen so...whatever. I DON'T CARE!
FUCK DAIRY QUEEN!
FUCK WASHINTON COUNTY!
FUCK RETARDED OLD PEOPLE WHO CAN'T DRIVE!
AND FUCK MY LIFE!
- You're so sensitive, I a ma machine.
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- edge_of_retreat
- February 19th, 6:21
Well basically yesterday was not a very awesome day for me.
Firstly, I think I'm getting sick from being stressed out, 2nd, my boy troubles are NEVER over,and 3rdly I remember that some of the people that I'm used to talking to aren't going to be here for much longer or they have already left.
I was driving to work and the wind was pretty suckish, and I remember thinking 'Hey, maybe the wind will pick up and flip my jeep over.'
That's a terrible thing to think, right?
I mean 'everything would be so much easier if it did' was all I thought about yesterday.
I'm better now, but only cause some people can cheer me up REALLY quick.
I've come to realize I really do like this person but it's kinda pointless to even try, ya know?
ANYWAY, faggle told me not to do anything productive this week so...I was thinking I prolly won't.
Oh well, it is what it is.
I feel bored all the time.
I used to be awesome at drawing and being random...I don't even know what has happened to me.
I need sometime locked in my room cause honestly...that's where most of my spontaneity comes from.
Welg I g2g faggle suggests I do so. :/
- There's no combination of words I could fit on a postcard...
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- edge_of_retreat
- February 12th, 22:13
So here I am.
School will be out around june 6th for me and I'm nervous as hell.
They said I might not graduate because I'm missing a math credit.
I HATE MATH!
WHAT THE HELL?!
I have like 5 million credits in history cause the dumbass counselor put me in them. :|
Fucking dumb cunt.
Anyway, enough with the outbursts and such.
I've found myself longing to listen to Jack Johnson, never shout never, and Stephen Jerzak.
Never heard of them?
They're the shit! :]
Faggle is done with the ugly bitch. :]
I've never been so happy to have him as my brother...
Well except those few occasional times when he sticks up for me.
I'm spending ALL DAY with caleb on saturday and honestly...
I'm not ready to.
Since I accidentally broke his nose....
It's been weird, but oh well.
He should watch what he says.
NO, I didn't punch him...the door hit him in the face.
Anyway, I g2g my stepdad wants the computer.
Oh what I'd give to be at faggles right now. :|
PARENTS ARE BITCHES!
